I hate school.
I have been sitting here since I got home from class doing homework. hours and hours and hours of it. physucks took a while….but at least I had a clue. somehow. but this prob/stats is really making me mad. and it has been for a long time.
my company got bought out monday or tuesday for $60M, by our competitor who was suing us. I’m very worried. Extremely even. I try not to think about it, but this could break a lot of plans. Badly. I mean I’m trying in school now, but still my GPA is never going to recover.
I was talking to Reed tonight and he outsourced a job to me:) A small website backend job in PHP that I’ll knock out sunday for $18/hr w/ $100 minimum. I need it too, I feel as though I’m badly broke. And I probably am. Well I just went and checked, and it’s not as bad as I was afraid, but still. I need to buy some health insurance (I’m uncovered at the moment, oops) and my car insurance is due and I feel like there’s something else. So anyway, working for >= $18/hr at something I enjoy doing is a good thing. I finally got technical issues worked out with Synchrologic and tried to work yesterday. John had some stuff for me to do but it was mostly crap, and either impossible or close to it or just plain not worth doing (energy expenditure vs benefit). So yeah. PHP work = good. Plus I need to have money left over to help for spring living, and who even knows if I’m gonna have a job come january?? ack. I have a lot of skills and I’m a pretty decent programmer (I’ve kind of fallen out of practice with non-scripting languages, but I could pick it back up in 10 minutes), but my grades are awful and the only people who know my worth are Synchrologic people. Anyway I’m done. Actually, I’m going to email my manager and probably his manager….I’d almost feel comfortable emailing our (former) CEO since he likes me….anyway I’m gonna email them and ask them how the buyout may affect Co-ops. If I’m going to be out a job in a couple of months, I need to start looking now. ARGH what am I thinking, NOBODY will hire a co-op for one semester or even two, especially one with low grades.
Hmm. I’ve just been thinking out loud. Don’t read it. I’m sorry.
minthoney said:
September 19th, 2003 at 12:31 pm
Okay my last text to you was like 1/61 and this one is 1/75. You sure get a lot of texts, and they aren’t all from me!
You love my texts, don’t you. You love me…don’t you?
And I am really sorry about all that you are dealing with right now. I almost didn’t even follow half of what you said, but I get the point. And you are NOT helping me want to go back to school with that homework assigment of yours. I don’t even understand why that stuff is necessary. Like, if I decide I want to do Forensic Science, I’ll have to know that much math and MORE physics that imaginable. I hate school. Why do we take so many un-needed required classes?
And I know your worth. I also know you have skills.
Let me know how it goes when you e-mail Synchrologic.
Haha, you said “Don’t read it.” at the end of the entry. Thanks for the fair warning. Just kidding. Relax with me for a bit on Saturday…and Emily.
emily said:
September 26th, 2003 at 4:53 pm
yeah, i text him too amanda dear. but only cuz i get bored in my school’s nazi sessions. or as they cleverly disguise them with names like “worship”, “vespers”, and “convocation”. just kidding. i text him because i love him more than you do. i love you amanda. really. alot.
rich said:
September 30th, 2003 at 8:43 pm
Just ’cause I can… and for that little element of surprise… what did you find out about the synchrologic merger + coops? and had you yet forgotten that i had an accountt? definitely interested to hear…
rich
progoth said:
September 30th, 2003 at 9:27 pm
haha yeah that did surprise me. I guess I had forgotten you had an account, but I have hundreds of accounts, most of which aren’t used. it’s really more for keeping a few people out than letting a few people in.
anyway, I sent an email to kevin and john when I posted this…and still haven’t gone back and checked my mail:) oops. maybe I’ll get on that sometime. I’ve been too stressed out about school to do much of anything.